Rose Petals and Nightmares

All my life, loneliness is all I've known
Because I feared rejection, loss, and pain.
It was just too much for my heart to own.

What a brave thing to do
to lead myself to you
Knowing that I could end up alone.

Gazing into your eyes;
Not a doubt in my mind
that you're the one.

Finding love is rare.
But I know I did.
You were my comfort;
my breath of fresh air.

You were like part of me
Without you, I couldn't breathe.
I was lost, without a purpose.

One cold night,
my worst nightmare came true.
My fears came alive.

I could feel it eating at my insides.
Wondering what I'd done wrong.
Finally realizing my fairy tale ending is gone.

Say you're sorry
because its the best you can do.
It'll never be enough.
There's just nobody better out there than you.

How do things get better
once I've had the best?
All the best lies
were told through your eyes.

A gold plated trophy in your honor.
A standing ovation.
For making me the happiest,
and yet the saddest I've ever been.