Shooting Stars in Empty Skies

All it took was one starry night

to tell me you love me.

And all it took was just one thought

to crush it all. To make my heart bleed.

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Crimson red keyboard strokes.
Wet cheeks and aching throats.
Choking over my shaky words.
Can't see whats happening. My vision is blurred.

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Several silent nights follow.

Open the doors

to the thoughts

I'm not able to swallow.

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I couldn't help but to fear

that somethings wrong.

That someone else is in your arms

where I belong.

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Because you forgot to tell me

we were done.

All you said is you need to be free

to live your dream and go where you want.

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I can't read your mind.

You've got to tell me your true thoughts.

instead of leaving me hanging,

with unanswered questions and fear of whats lost.

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You never said anything.

about your feelings changing.

So why should I fear the worst? Why should I torture myself?

If you just wanted what was best for you and me?

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Does that make sense in your mind?

It does in mine.

Just as long as that's clear to you,

I'll be fine.

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I didn't think your love for me instantly disappeared.

I thought you just wanted to take the labels away

But every night to God, I'd pray,

that in your life, I would stay.

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But I must be doing something wrong,

because you're no longer there.

This is what I feared worst,

that you'd vanish into thin air.

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I'm getting better.

I'm making progress.

I'm fixing my negativity

so please don't give up yet.

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I'm still here.

And I know you are.

Please don't get lost again.

Don't stray too far.

Kisses after Nightmares

Each sundown,
you take over my thoughts.
Tossing and turning
Thinking of what I've lost.

In the darkness of my mind,
you've left your silhouette behind.
For me to see and cherish every night
what I once had, and your words will recite.

A black and white rerun
of you and I.
You follow me to the door,
and kiss me goodbye.

I drive home
with you on my mind,
and how I didn't want to leave.
Forever I would stay behind.

But all alone,
I leave you
standing in the dark.
Hoping you miss me too.

And another time
flashes before my eyes.
Looking up at the night sky.
and then into your beautiful eyes.

That was the best moment of my life.
And you gave it to me.
Theres no way it was a lie.
I'm sure you'd agree.

But then I wake up to nothing.
No reason to get out of bed.
Nobody to make meel special.
And I dread the day ahead.

I'm a dreamer,
but this is a nightmare.
Please wake me up.
I'm dying inside here.

I close my eyes.
You're nowhere to be found.
You've left me here.
I don't know my way around.

Nobody has wanted me like you did.
Nobody kissed me like you kissed.
Nobody has spoke the words you spoke.
But was this all just a joke?

Becase your care for me suddenly disappered.
And you moved on to better people.
Do you know how much that hurt to see?
Do you understand my jealousy?

I can't just find someone new
right away like you can.
I can't fly away again.
I have to start over with my future, and find a new plan.

Hopefully that one day,
where I can wake up and feel this way again.
Will come sooner than later.
And give me a happy end.

I'll dream forever
about the day.
Where I wake up,
and It'll all be okay.

Sweet Lies

When you speak,
music fills my ears.
Your words so sweet,
It brings me to tears.

Remembering what you told me
made me feel so warm and safe inside.
But who really knew
those sweet words were lies?

I'll do anything to hear again.
Oh, the way those sweet lies mend.
A broken heart that loved you.
And so far down you had to pretend.

Bury me with sweet lies,
and lower me into the ground.
But even though it was the death of me,
6 feet under, I'll stay sound.

Lie so sweetly.
Lie over and over so I knew.
After all, what could a lie hurt
when I don't know its not true?

Bend me and break me.
Let those sweet lies overtake me.
Shape my heart with them.
Show me love within.

Look me in the eyes
Tell me your sweet lies.
Make me feel special again.

Lay me Down to Sleep

I gave it all to you
because there is not
any other person
I'd rather give it to.

You swept me off me feet
and took me to the stars.
Oh, you're words so sweet
Amazed that this is ours.

"I'll be here forever."
"I'll stay if you stay."
You're talking pretty big, there.
and talking honestly, I pray.

Of course its not forever,
but one day shy
of three months, that is,
and the time flew by.

All of the love I had for you
couldn't be given in that little of time
There are so many things I wanted to do
for us to make our love shine.

So you want to go away
and not be tied down.
By someone you have to love
You want to be free to move around.

But not for a few years will that take place.
Why cant we enjoy the remaining time we have
to hold each other
in love's embrace.

I don't expect you to answer this.
I'm sure you have your thoughts.
Its just with every kiss
my stomach tied in more knots.

Butterflies now flutter inside.
They can't understand what went wrong
Neither can the tears I cried.
I'm speechless, but must remain strong.

I would've been happy
with the future we planned.
Until you kicked that fairy tale ending
into the sand.

We've lost our way in this love
Now were just friends,
But I'll eventually be okay with that,
just as long my heart mends.